Wednesday, April 30, 2014

Watching the Palisades


Carlos woke with a start in the early dawn, both comforted and alarmed at the sounds of lakeside morning he hadn’t heard since childhood: the lapping of waves on the sand, the calls of hungry seagulls, and nearby songbirds in the trees.  Sounds that in his youth had meant vacation on the beach could now mean only one thing.  The cooling pumps weren’t running.
He sprang from his cot with an agility that defied his age; at 55 he was the oldest Guardsman stationed at the Palisades Nuclear Power Station by a generation.  Opening the flap on his tent, he surveyed the scene.  No sign of life stirred among the corrugated metal buildings that housed what was left of a workshop and materials storage depot, nor in the nearby tents where the other half-dozen Guardsmen bunked in the warmer months.  The mess hall, now pitch dark, had been set up in a low concrete building just east of the main plant building.  On the two hundred yard stretch of beach grass between the plant’s former cooling water intake and the lake, nothing moved but the gentle breeze through the grass in the gray morning light.  Worse than the silence, there wasn’t a guard in sight.
“What the frack is going on around here?!” Carlos yelled as he entered the mess hall.  “And why aren’t the pumps running, Williams?”
He punctuated the man’s name with a boot to the table leg, where Williams had been characteristically sleeping through his watch.  Williams jolted awake, leapt to attention, and hoarsely croaked out an apology.  “I don’t know, Sarge,” said Williams, pointing out the obvious.
“Go check the pumps, and I’ll check on the generator,” said Carlos, his tone calmer already, having found some comfort in the familiar.
Walking to the south side of the plant building, he passed through the hallway to the room housing the backup generator, finding it shut off with no fuel in either tank.  He’d checked the reserve tank himself two days ago on his weekly inspection, and the night guards usually checked on the main tank every night, when the brownouts usually lasted longest. 
“Strange,” he thought to himself, “the reserve tank should last 4 hours at night, and the main tank should power the facility for at least 18.  That would mean that the power’s been out for nearly a day.  That’s not unheard of, but we usually get notice from Holland in that case.”  Before he followed that train of thought further, Carlos walked out to the nearby shed, pulled the diesel cans off their shelf, and headed out to the tanker truck that served as their fuel storage facility. 
Parked unceremoniously on the sandy remains of the lawn that used to ring the plant, to make it easier to haul jugs into the generator room with seemingly increasing frequency, the tanker was Carlos’s least favorite part of his post.   Partly because he was keenly aware of how tenuously his squad was able to accomplish its mission, partly because he knew where it came from and resented that, and partly because it reminded him of a life he’d once wanted that he’d been born too late to live. 
“It’s too early for this, and I need coffee,” he said aloud to no one, clearing his past away as the sun began to cook off the mist in the nearby grasses.  He set the jugs on the crumbling asphalt beside the back end of the truck, hooked up the hose to the tanker’s outlet, and filled each jug in turn.  The fuel came out slowly, and a couple quick raps on the side of the tanker told him it was nearly empty.
“Not my morning, eh?” he asked the sky. 
--
Back at the mess, with the power back on and the pumps humming along in the background, Carlos sat down to breakfast with the men, enjoying his oats, eggs, and coffee.  By far the best thing about this posting was the food, which was pretty good and in enough quantity to keep them in good spirits.  There may not be much to do around the plant, but at least they ate well.
“Sergeant Murphy, how long was the power out,” asked Private Gomez. 
“Don’t know,” replied Carlos, swallowing his last mouth full of eggs.  “I’m going to hop on the radio up to Holland and find out what the word is.  In the meantime, round up the guys.  We need to shape up this operation today.”
He stood, grabbing his cup of coffee, and headed for the radio room.  It was late enough by now that he could get someone at the base in Holland to tell him about the power outage.  Sitting down, he powered up the transmitter and hailed the Michigan National Guard base in Holland. At 8 a.m. there ought to be someone manning the radio.
“Palace Guard to Holland, over.”
“Holland here, go ahead, over,” he heard back.
“We’ve got and XPO here and want a status check, over.”
“Say again, over.”
“Palace is experiencing and extended power outage.  Please advise status, over.”
“Hold please, over.”
Carlos sighed.  He waited impatiently to hear what he already knew. They had no idea.
“Palace Guard, be advised: HQ is working on it and will contact you at twelve hundred, over.”
“Copy, Holland. Palace Guard also needs delivery of another ammo canister,” said Carlos.
“Negative, Palace Guard.  Ammo is currently fully allocated.  Stay tuned at twelve hundred.  Holland out.”
Carlos clicked off the transmitter, swallowed his last swig of coffee, and stormed into the mess.
“Captain will be here in two hours,” he barked.  “Get this place cleaned up and I mean NOW!’
--
Captain Clark’s visit was brief and to the point.  He drove down in his Jeep at the head of a column of troop trucks and technicals, stopping by on his way to the Indiana border.  Carlos had hiked out to the highway to meet them. 
There would be no more fuel delivered from the base, as the Chicago boys had cut them off.  Clark’s men had tried to patrol the area, but with fuel scarce and the renewed hostilities between the rural militia and the mob, they couldn’t keep an eye on all the power lines all the time.
Carlos’s orders were to “somehow” keep the pumps operating until power could be restored to the plant, while Clark and his men would head for the refinery down south and try to seize some fuel trucks.
“Good luck, Sergeant Murphy,” said Clark as he saluted his goodbye.
“You too, sir.”  Carlos watched the column disappear, knowing that he would never see Clark again.
--
Back in the radio room, Carlos changed channels and flicked on the transmitter.  It was a long shot, but he had no choice.
“Grease Monkey to Buffalo Wing, come in.”
Static was the only reply.
“Grease Monkey to Buffalo Wing, come in please.”
Carlos waited, beginning to doubt himself.  He had all but disowned his cousin when he’d joined the mob out of high school.  Paco hadn’t wanted to join the Army, and with the wars in Africa going so badly it was hard to blame him.  Still, the mafia?  Surely staying at his family farm near Bangor would’ve been a better life.  Then again, Paco wasn’t the country type.
“Grease Monkey to Buffalo Wing, come in.” 
They hadn’t spoken in years, and maybe Paco had changed.  Maybe it was just as well that there was no answer.  Then, the receiver crackled to life.
“Hey Carlos.  Long time no hear, cuz.”
“Hey Paco.  How you been?”
“Busy, amigo.  What can I do for you?”
Carlos sighed.  He hated owing favors to dangerous men.  “I’m in a pinch, cousin.  I need some diesel in a bad way, and you know I wouldn’t ask if it wasn’t important.  I hear you know a guy who can get things done.”
“Whoa, now, Carlito.  That’s a tall order, my man.  What you got to make this worth the trouble?”
“That’s the tough part, Paco.  I’m in no position to offer anything.  But I can say that if I don’t get some diesel soon, all our family will become refugees, along with everyone else downwind from Covert.”
Carlos paused, but Paco didn’t respond.  They both knew talking on the radio about this could be dangerous.
Finally Paco asked, “You calling from where I think you’re calling from, Carlos?”
“I’ve been stationed at Palisades for a couple years, but now the power here’s out and we’re running low on backup fuel.  If those pumps shut off for more than a few days, the pool could boil off and the fuel could go.  I didn’t know where else to turn, as nobody seems to have fuel anymore but you guys.”
There.  He’d said it aloud for the first time to anyone, and anyone could be listening.
“Well, you’re right about that,” Paco chuckled. “Let me see what I can do.”
--
Martin and Millie VanWinkle taught school in the living room of their small house near Holland’s waterfront.  Martin had taught science at Hope College in his early 30s until the school, like so much else in town, shut its doors.  Years later, their modest income kept them fed, clothed, and housed; and it also paid for Martin’s prized solar panels that powered the radio gear in the small room at the top of the stairs, where he liked to spend sunny mornings like this one.
“Holy Frack!” he exclaimed.
“Martin, watch your language.  The students are here,” called Millie.
“Millie, send them home, we need to pack,” Martin hollered down the stairs.  She could already hear him rummaging upstairs.  He’d been on the radio since late morning and hadn’t come down for lunch.
“Wait here, kids, I’ll go see what the fuss is about.  Connie, can you take over?” she asked the oldest student as she headed up the stairs.
“Martin, what on Earth’s the matter?” she asked when she found him in their bedroom throwing clothing into a suitcase.  “Where are we going?”
“Palisades,” he said, closing his suitcase.  “The grid’s down, and they’re almost out of fuel.  I’m going to pack the radio gear after I round up the others.”  He stopped and looked up at his wife.  They’d talked about this idly for years, but it had always seemed so unreasonable.  Now, all of a sudden, it was really happening. 
“Are you sure?”  Millie wished she could think of something better to say.  “I mean, how do you know?”
“I overheard a conversation on the military channel this morning.  They were talking about ammunition, but that didn’t make any sense.  Then a couple hours later on a civilian channel I heard a guy asking his cousin for a delivery of diesel fuel to Covert, saying something about refugees and fuel pools.  Then I checked in around the county with the club guys, and they confirmed the grid power’s been out along the lakeshore for nearly two days.  I think this may be the real thing,” he said. 
Millie’s eyes went wide at the thought of the spent fuel boiling and burning and irradiating the county and beyond.  “What are we going to do?”
Martin stood and held her shoulders, looking her in the eyes.  “We’re going to gather the others, load up whatever we can fit into Bob’s boat, and do what we can.  Now can you please send the children home and start packing?”  He turned to go down the hall to the radio room and start packing his gear.
“But it’s May.  Who will tend the garden if we go, and who will teach the children?”
Martin stopped.  She had a point.  While he was busy thinking about saving the county from what happened in Boston, he hadn’t thought about keeping their homestead going, let alone keeping people at the plant fed.  He clearly needed to think this through. 
Then it hit him; Sal would know what to do.  If anyone knew how to pull off something this crazy, it would definitely be the eccentric old man raising cider apples on the other side of town.  Martin walked straight down the stairs, past the children studying algebra, and hopped on his bicycle for a ride across what was left of Holland’s crumbling streets.
--
The next morning, Carlos knew he didn’t have long before he’d have to fill they guys in.  They were anxious, and everyone could tell that Carlos was, too.  To buy some time, he set two of them the task of inventorying the larder, three of them on cleaning the deck in the fuel pool room, and picked Gomez to walk the perimeter with him.  He liked Gomez, and probably trusted him the most of anyone else there.  Besides, a walk through the woods along the fence line would do him some good. 
They started along the beach at the north line, and walked up the dune above the dry cask storage platform, where fifty years’ worth of fuel rods were packed in helium-filled concrete and steel casks, set out in the sun and rain.  They were designed to last 300 years, but the surfaces were cracking already. 
Farther along they passed above the old parking lot.  “Hard to believe that used to be full of cars every day, isn’t it?” asked Gomez.  “Where’d they get all the fuel for them, anyway?” 
Carlos said nothing, remembering his time in Africa fighting for oil, vaguely recalling cars being still somewhat common as a child. 
They moved on, walking past the old guard house and on down the back side of the dune toward the highway.  The power plant had its own road, which they crossed now, heading south and then back uphill toward the lake.  So far the fence was still intact, and there were no signs of trouble. 
At the top of the dune along the south line, looking out at the lake, Gomez asked Carlos about the cooling buildings, stretching out in two long rows ahead of them. 
“Those were to cool the main reactor,” he said.  “The fuel would boil the water, make steam, and turn a generator.  The excess heat had to be released to keep the reaction going safely.  Those were just big exhaust vents.”
“Sarge, why did they shut this plant down?  I mean, they still have the one in Benton Harbor going, right?  What was wrong with this one?”
“That’s a long story Gomez.  The short version is that the company that owned it went bankrupt when its other nuke plant in Boston melted down.  The state took over Palisades and idled it for a few years.  They tried to restart it, but something was wrong with the cooling system, and they couldn’t fix it.  They brought in guys from Chicago to pull the fuel rods out and stash them in the fuel pool.  That’s what we’re doing here now, just keeping the rest of the fuel from causing any problems.  The reactor is shut down, thank God, but the fuel pool has to stay cooled.”
“How do you know so much about this plant?”
“I grew up here, and it was all anybody talked about for a long time when I was young.  All I wanted to do was work on dad’s trucks, but you couldn’t avoid hearing about that plant anywhere around.  I thought I’d get away from it in the Army, but somehow after all those years I ended up right back here.”
Carlos started walking, ending the conversation.  Gomez followed out through the trees, through the dune grass, and out to the lake. 
When they got back, the guys were clearly uneasy.  There’d been some radio chatter about fighting down near Indiana, and the two men checking the larder had overheard.  The Michigan Guard wouldn’t be bringing any diesel at any rate.
Williams saw them coming first.  “Sarge, what’s going on?” 
Carlos stood facing them squarely.  He couldn’t put it off any longer.  “The power’s out,” he said.  “We don’t know when it’s coming back on.  The tanker truck is nearly empty, and the generator is burning through what we’ve got left faster than I’d like.”
“What’d Captain Clark say?”
“He said they’re heading south to try to get more fuel.  It’s not clear when more is coming.”  He could see the wheels turning.  They’d heard the radio chatter.  How they'd react would determine their future, but it was too early to read them.
Just then, Gomez said, “Listen!  Do you hear that?”  One by one, they each picked up on the rumble of a truck on the highway. 
“Guards!  Take up positions,” ordered Carlos.  The men scrambled for the mess hall, where their rifles were stored.  They scattered in pairs to either side of the road and took up positions behind trees, while Carlos readied his sidearm and walked toward the old guardhouse. 
Rumbling up the road from the highway was a tanker truck tailed by a pickup with a mounted machine gun.  The design for these “technicals” had been imported from Africa with the return of the soldiers who’d fought there twenty years earlier, ultimately losing the competition with China for the last unclaimed oil exports.  Riding shotgun in this one, an old Chevy one-ton, was an older, pudgier version of the teenager Carlos had known.  As the trucks rolled to a stop, Carlos waved and walked up to the pickup.
“Paco, it’s good to see you,” greeted Carlos as Paco opened the door and stepped out of the truck.
“It’s not every day I come bearing gifts to the enemy, Carlito, but it’s good to see you, too.”  They embraced and smiled at each other.  “I would love to stay and catch up, amigo, but my men and these trucks will be missed before too long.  Lucky for you your friends created a diversion with their silly little raid near the refinery.  We managed to sneak out mostly unnoticed.  How much fuel do you need?”
“As much as you can give us, Paco.  Like I said, the grid here is down, and we need to keep those pumps running to cool the fuel, at least until the power can be restored.”
“That may be a long time, my friend.  The lines are gone from the highway exit to the substation a couple miles down, and the transformers there are gone, too.  Probably taken by someone who needs them somewhere else,” said Paco, giving Carlos a sideways look and glancing at the trees where the Guardsmen were poorly hidden, aiming back at them. 
“You mean probably taken to Chicago, right?”
Paco clucked his disapproval.  “Times are tough and getting tougher, you know.  It wasn’t my call, I can tell you that, but I wouldn’t be surprised if it was us.  It’s hard to keep the power up in Chicago, and you can forget about ordering new equipment.  Why do you think I’m here bringing you the fuel, amigo?  You think we got nothin’ better to do with it?”
“I’m sure you do,” Carlos was bitter now, but he couldn’t show it.  Paco’s men were eying the Guards and watching for a sign of aggression.  The calculus had suddenly changed, though, and Carlos needed the whole tanker truck.  It seemed like Paco was even looking for a reason to give it to him. 
“Look,” he said, “I’m here because of the family, Carlos.  How much time do you need to get word to them and get them up north somewhere?”
“Maybe two weeks, maybe a month.  With you guys pulling the fuel supply, it’s going to be slow moving people out of the downwind zone.  With summer coming on, the pumps run 24/7 to keep the fuel building cool.  If you could bring us another tanker in three weeks, we could get lots of people out of the area in and orderly way and save a lot of lives.”
“Another tanker!” Paco laughed loudly, startling the men in the trees.  “Tell me, how do you think I can convince the boss to give so much fuel to a humanitarian mission in a place that we’ve abandoned to terrorists?”
“I don’t know.  You were always a good salesman,” said Carlos with a weak smile. 
“I tell you what, Carlos.  We’ll trade you this tanker for that one you’ve got parked on the lawn over there.  I know you’re desperate, and I’m a generous man.  You swear to me on your mother’s grave that you’ll get the family out of harm’s way before this runs out, and we’ll pretend that we were never here.”  He extended his hand.  “What do you say, amigo?”
Carlos clasped his forearm and shook, clapping Paco on the shoulder.  “I say thank you, cousin.  You’re a lifesaver, and you have my word.”
Paco whistled at the truck driver.  “Hey Gupta!  Pull up next to that other trailer up ahead,” he shouted.  They began walking toward the building, and Paco said, “One more thing, Carlos.  When you go, please tell my father that I did what I could to help you.  I know you’re all disappointed in the life I chose, but you know I’ve never forgotten my family, right?”
Carlos turned and faced him.  “Your father still loves you, Paco, and today the whole family would be proud of what you’ve done.  I will be sure to tell them next time I see them,” he said, grinning, “especially about how well-fed you look these days.” 
Paco laughed and clapped his cousin’s shoulder.  “Thank you, Carlos. Now call your men down from the trees, eh?  It would be a shame for one of them to frack this up.”
--
As Paco’s trucks pulled out with the near-empty tanker in tow, Carlos sat at his desk in the mess building trying to figure out how long they could make the diesel in the tanker last.  Now that he knew the power wouldn’t be coming back on, the Guard had suffered serious losses in their failed raid on the refinery, and there wouldn’t likely be much of any fuel to be had anywhere around for the foreseeable future, he had to wrap his head around what to do next.  Before he could find a pen to work out the math on gallons of fuel per day, Gomez came rushing in.
“Sarge, we’ve got a problem.  Thompson was walking off with the two jerry cans of diesel, and Williams has him held at gunpoint.  You gotta come quick!”
Carlos followed him out past the guardhouse to where all five other men were now gathered, arguing loudly and brandishing their rifles.  As Carlos approached, two of the men pointed their rifles at him and Gomez.  He raised his hands up and gestured calmly, “Everybody just settle down, okay?  There’s no reason anybody needs to get shot over this.”  The men just stared at him, dumbfounded.  This was not the usual loud, aggressive Sergeant Murphy.
“Look, guys, if you want to leave, I’m not going to stop you.  I saw too many soldiers in Kenya end up dead because their CO wouldn’t believe that the cavalry wasn’t coming.  Yesterday I saw Captain Clark leading better than half of the men from Holland down toward Chicago.  You all heard on the radio what happened.”  They nodded. 
Thompson asked accusingly, “Did you warn your cousin that they were coming?  Is that why he showed up to reward you?”
Gomez shouted, “You take that back, Thompson!  Sarge has been one of us since before you were born!”  He raised his rifle at Thompson, who still had the diesel cans.
“Easy now, fellas,” said Carlos.  “I know that looked bad.  Paco left for Chicago while I was fighting in Africa.  I hadn’t seen him again until today.  With the power out and our fuel supply running low, I needed time to figure out what to do.  Paco was the only one who could get us any diesel and without that, the pumps fail and the fuel pool boils off and catches fire.  I had no choice.”
“Why didn’t you call up to Holland?  They brought it before,” said Thompson.
“Where do you think they got their fuel?  The only refinery in 300 miles with any oil coming in is in Chicago,” replied Carlos.  He let it sink in that their militia was totally dependent on the mob for their fuel.
“So what happens now?”  asked Williams, his rifle still raised but pointing aimlessly off to the side.  His attention was clearly distracted.
“I tell you what I’m doing,” said Thompson.  “I’m getting the frack out of here.”
“Me too,” said Johnson.
“Like I said, if you want to leave, go ahead and leave.  We need those cans, Thompson.  We’ve got to keep the generator filled up or that spent fuel goes up and irradiates the countryside for 50 miles.” 
Thompson relented, setting the cans down and backing away.  Gomez still had his rifle trained on him, as Johnson did on Gomez.  The standoff was less dangerous but still tense.
“I’ll go further.  It’s about supper time.  How about we all sit down for one more meal together?  Anyone who wants to leave can pack up at their bunk and head out on a full stomach,” said Carlos.  “Sound fair?”
The men looked around at each other, lowered their guns, and followed Carlos back to the mess.
--
Four men left after supper.  Carlos watched them walk out to the highway and head north through the tree-slanted evening light.  They said they were heading back to Holland to see who was left at the base, but Carlos knew better.  No soldier abandoned his post and waltzed back to base to check in.
That left Gomez, Williams, and himself; three men to keep the generator running as long as they could, and figure out what to do when the fuel ran out.  He had yet to figure out exactly how long that would be, but it could wait at least until morning.  His head was throbbing, and he needed rest.  He turned and walked up the hill toward the setting sun, toward the looming containment dome above the old reactor, toward the comforting hum of the cooling pumps, and his well-worn cot.
--
Martin and Millie brought their supplies with them to the dock behind Bob’s house a few blocks west of downtown.  As the sun sank lower over the lake to the west, Martin moved with an air of excitement he hadn’t felt in decades.  Millie fidgeted, unsure at this late hour if the fate awaiting them at their destination was one she wanted to meet.  
“It’s too dangerous,” said Millie.  “If they’re out of fuel and the power’s out, it may already be too late.  We should head north now, not rush headlong toward boiling plutonium rods and armed soldiers!”
Martin looked up from the deck of Bob’s sailboat.  They were loading some old PV panels, radio gear, and supplies into what used to be the cabin.  “Honey, you don’t have to come, but I’m definitely going.  Sal and the others are right; we can’t walk away without at least trying to stop this.  If the plant goes up, everyone from here to Indiana becomes a refugee.”
“Well, can’t we send someone else to find out what’s going on there, or maybe ask at the Guard base if they know what’s happening?  Maybe they fixed everything, or maybe they brought back fuel from the Whiting refinery.”
Martin grasped her hands and said, “Millie, it’s okay to be afraid.  To be honest, I’m pretty nervous right now, too.  I can’t let that stop me, though.  If you’d rather stay here with my sister and look after the house, we’ll call you when we get there and get the radio set up.”
At that, Millie set her jaw.  “I’m coming with you,” she said.  “I still don’t know if I trust Sal’s plan, but I don’t want to sit around wondering what kind of trouble you’re in.”
Martin laughed and hugged her.  “I love you, Millie, and I’m so glad you’re coming with us.  I’ve got a hunch that they’ll be happy to see us.”
Just then, Bob, Sal, and two young men walked up hauling barrow-loads of food, wiring, and other gear for the boat.  Sal smiled and with a twinkling eye guessed correctly, “It will be lovely to have you along, Millie.  I think you’ll be quite helpful when we get to the plant.”  Martin and the young men began unloading the wheelbarrows and boarding with the gear.
“When will we get there?” asked Martin.
“That depends on the weather,” said Bob.  “If we leave in the morning, catch good wind, and everything goes well, we can make it by nightfall.  More realistically, we’ll make it to Saugatuck or South Haven tomorrow and get to Palisades sometime the next day.”
“Two days of sailing on the big lake.  How lovely,” said Millie. She was genuinely excited to go sailing on Lake Michigan.  “There sure are worse ways to travel.”
“Yes, yes,” gruffed Bob.  “Can we please finish loading this stuff?  If we’re going to sink my boat I’d like to find out here, where I can at least swim home safely.”
Sal chuckled.  “Robert, my boy, I find your confidence reassuring.  Come; help an old man find his sea legs again, would you?”  He reached out to Martin with a surprisingly firm grip, then stepped aboard and began to pass duffel bags and crates below.
--
“Four months.”  Carlos stared into his coffee, not sure whether that was a long time or a short time.  He’d checked the numbers three times, gone over the fuel consumption log twice, and checked the gauge on the tanker trailer four times.  “So something had better happen by September,” he said to himself. 
He didn’t know what to expect.  He’d checked in with Holland by radio last night and this morning, but got no response.  Clark and his men were probably never coming back, and without fuel there wouldn’t likely be many reinforcements from Grand Rapids.  Carlos wondered if there was anyone up there who even remembered that there was an abandoned nuclear plant in Covert.  All of his contact, supplies, relief squads, and annual drills came from Holland, as they had for at least five years now.  Even when he got relief time twice a year, he just hiked out to Bangor to stay with his uncle, brother, and cousin on the family farm.  There was never any news from up north, and rarely much from elsewhere.  He caught chatter on the radio now and then, but it was nearly impossible to tell what was real news and what was just some crank with a solar panel and a transmitter.  For all he knew, they were totally on their own.
That thought set Carlos in motion.  “Gomez, Williams,” he called as he walked out through the mess into the yard.  The men came up from their tents, expecting orders.  “I’m going to check the circuits from the generator to make sure we’re not leaking power into anything but the pumps, lights, and radio.  Will one of you give me a hand by flipping breakers and the other keep an eye out?”
Gomez stared blankly.  Sergeant Murphy was asking for their help instead of barking orders.  Things had clearly changed.  “Uh, sure Sarge.  I’ll help you out with the breakers.”  Williams nodded, shouldered his rifle, and went to climb the access ladder up to the main roof of the plant to keep watch.
As they checked the circuits for power, they shut off all but two.  One clearly controlled the pumps, and the other seemed to feed all power to the mess building.  They went there next to check the building for anything that looked to be using power.  Carlos planned to check the fuel consumption over the next few days to see if it changed at all.
“Four months, huh?  That’s not that long.  What do we do when the fuel runs out then?”
“I don’t know,” said Carlos.  “You got any ideas?”
“Follow Thompson and the others up north, maybe.”  Gomez shrugged.  “How else do you keep nuclear fuel cooled?”
“I have no idea.  Let’s go into the fuel storage building and see what it looks like inside,” suggested Carlos.  “I haven’t been in there since my orientation when I first arrived.  HQ said they didn’t want us going in there, but I don’t think it could hurt anything at this point.”
--
Carlos slept fitfully that night.  For the first time in as long as he remembered, no one was telling him what to do.  Growing up had been easy; school, summers working on the farm, and his decade in the Army all handed him orders and a clear objective.  Even when the Army abandoned his unit in Kenya and he worked his way back on freighters, his way was clear.  When he finally arrived home amid the chaos of an imploding civil order he went back to the farm, where his uncle still bossed him around.  When things with the mob in Chicago seemed to be spilling out up their way, he signed right up for the New National Guard, where his orders came with 3 squares a day and a pretty cushy assignment to guard something nobody wanted on a forested stretch of beach near his family. 
That all changed in the last two days, and now he felt adrift.  Each time he radioed for orders from Holland and got no reply, a knot of fear welled up in his gut.  Gomez and Williams still looked to him for leadership, but he was a better squad leader than strategist.  Thrown into a maze, he could always fight his way out.  Left now to his own devices with a ticking bomb he couldn’t defuse, and the weight of the decisions he faced threatened to crush him.
If he couldn’t figure out a way to keep those fuel rods cool in the next few months, thousands of people, his family among them, would become landless refugees.  Visions of highways crowded with people carrying their lives on their backs haunted his dreams.
--
“There it is!” exclaimed Martin from the bow of the boat.  “I can see the containment dome.”
Millie looked past her husband as he pressed the binoculars to his face.  Not that she didn’t believe him, but the shoreline in front of them looked just the same as the shoreline behind them.  The dense forested dunes gave way to a stretch of beach grass, until a thin-looking strip of light tan sand was lapped by white-foamed waves in the gentle westerly breeze.  The scene disappeared into a light hazy mist in both directions under a sky dotted with puffy clouds.  To the west lay an unbroken line of water as far as anyone could see.
They’d anchored last night just inside the breakwall at Saugatuck, on the mouth of the Kalamazoo River.  Life on the boat was much less romantic than she’d hoped, especially when night fell and all six of them were wedged on deck after a dinner of cornbread and beans; what was left of the cabin had been stuffed with all of their supplies.  Still, it sure beat walking.
“At this rate, we should get there by mid-afternoon,” said Bob.  “One night on the boat was plenty for me.”
Sal agreed.  “Better to arrive during daylight hours for many reasons,” he said.  “We have to be prepared for whoever is there not to welcome visitors, even if we know we mean well.”
Millie frowned.  “You mean they don’t even know we’re coming?”
Bob looked questioningly to Sal, who smiled.  “We didn’t think it wise to announce over the radio that a handful of unarmed people would be bringing a boatload of valuable equipment down the lakeshore.  There may be some who might look on that as an invitation to relieve us of our supplies.”  He turned to face Millie.  “That, my dear, is one reason why I was so delighted you’d chosen to join us.  Nothing says ‘We come in peace’ to soldiers like an unarmed group of men and women offering gifts and assistance.  There are many other reasons, of course, but we’ll get to those in good time.”
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A while after lunch Carlos was at his desk in the mess building going over some documents Gomez had found in the main control room.  They looked like blueprints but clearly weren’t; there were symbols indicating valves and heat exchangers, and he thought they might help him understand the cooling system.  His eyes hurt trying to read the tiny script, and he had yet to make heads or tails of it. 
Williams came running in nearly out of breath.  “Sarge!  There’s a sailboat that just turned in to the cooling inlet trench.  The people on board are waving white hankies!”
Carlos looked up blankly.  “A sailboat?  Here?”  That didn’t make any sense.  He hardly ever saw boats go by on the lake these days, and certainly no one ever tried to land at the old power plant.
“Gomez is on the roof on watch, he yelled down for me to come get you.”
Carlos stood and said, “Tell Gomez to stay put and watch our backs.  Grab your rifle and let’s go see what these sailors are after.”
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Sal, Martin, and the young men stood at the bow waving white flags as the two rough-looking militiamen walked out through the beach grass to meet them.  Millie stayed with Bob at the helm.  Though used to the sight of men with guns, she shivered at the thought that they were coming straight for the boat, straight for the six of them.  The gentle rocking of the anchored boat on the waves in this small inlet didn’t soothe her nerves in the least.
“It’s all going to be all right,” said Bob in a hushed voice, patting her shoulder.  “Sal’s up front, and they’re not going to shoot an unarmed 70-year-old man.”
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As they approached the boat, the sight of the motley crew puzzled Carlos.  There were two guys about Gomez and Williams’ age, an old man with a big white beard, a middle-aged couple and another middle-aged man.  This was clearly no invasion, and they were waving white hankies.  He lowered his rifle and motioned Williams to do the same.
“Hello there!” hollered the old man.
“Hello,” replied Carlos as he and Williams stopped a few yards from the boat.  “What are you doing here?”
“I’m Sal, and this is Martin, Jose, Orrin, Millie, and Bob.”  He pointed out the crew and dodged the question.
“My name is Sergeant Murphy, and this is Private Williams.”
“It’s nice to meet you, Sergeant,” said Sal.  “We’ve come looking for the Palisades Nuclear Power Station.  Can you tell us if we’re on the right track?”
“Well, this is the place, but I’m not sure why you’re looking for it.  It’s a restricted area in the best of times, and these are not the best of times.”
“Ah, I see.  It’s just that we heard there was a power outage here, and we were wondering if there was anything we might be able to do…” Sal left the rest of the offering up to Sergeant Murphy.
“How did you hear about that?”  Carlos was curious what the public knew about recent events involving the militia.
Martin piped up, “I have an old radio I like to listen to sometimes, and I heard mention of a power outage a couple of days ago.”  He made sure not to mention the other conversation he’d overheard.
“Well, unless you can find some transformers and a couple miles of power line to hook us back up to what’s left of the power grid, I’m not sure what you’d be able to do to help,” said Carlos.  “Unless maybe you’ve got a truckload of diesel fuel for our generator in that boat.” 
Sal smiled, “What we brought isn’t exactly diesel fuel, but it can power some things in a pinch.”  Carlos perked up at this.  “Would you be so kind as to invite us ashore, Sergeant?”
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On that first walk back to the plant they worked through many formalities.  Carlos gave the group a tour of the facility and spoke frankly about their situation.  He told them about the four other men leaving, about how long their fuel supply would last, and how he’d had no orders for days now.  Had they come armed or shown aggression, he’d have acted differently.  As they talked, he felt the weight of last night’s worries begin to ease the more he shared them.  It seemed at least he wouldn’t be facing such challenging decisions alone.
 They sat down for an early dinner and got to know one another.  Carlos could fix anything with an engine in it, while Martin could make anything electrical work with some time and scavenged parts.  Bob ran a still in his backyard and could ferment just about anything that grew, while Millie could grow a bountiful garden anywhere.  After dinner was over, though, Sal surprised them all.
“It’s a strange pleasure seeing this place again.  When I last left, it was under much more strenuous circumstances.  You see, I was one of the government inspectors charged with overseeing this plant.  My last day of work here was when the state took over and then finished defueling the reactor.”
Everyone stared at him, stunned.  He continued, “It had been my intention to try restarting the plant for many years, but it’s clear now how foolish and dangerous that would’ve been.  I don’t know everything about this place; there were hundreds of people working to make it operate.  I would, however, cherish the opportunity to do my part to steward the spent fuel as best I can for as long as possible, with the help of as many of you as are willing.  I think that together we could do much to protect our families and neighbors who live downwind.”
Millie found herself raising her glass.  “To those downwind,” she said.  The company joined her in a chorus of “here, here!”
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That evening as they unloaded the supplies up a wooden plank and wheeled them on a cart up through the sandy stretch of grass, Sal found Carlos staring out over the lake a few yards up the shore.  He stood next to him facing the setting sun as it widened and reddened over the gray glassy water, listening to the rhythmic breaking of waves in the gentle wind.
“You know, those solar panels aren’t likely to outlast me,” Carlos said.  “Even if we figure out how to keep this thing stitched together for a few years, eventually that pool is going to go.”
“Yes, that’s true.  And even if we can keep the pool contained, those dry casks aren’t going to hold together forever, either,” replied Sal.  “There is no technology we have to keep that spent fuel safe forever, but I still can’t think of a good enough excuse to give my granddaughter why she has to leave when there’s something I can do about it, if only for a time.”
Carlos sighed.  “It just feels like such a strange way to protect my home and family.  Putting together solar panels, building wind generators out of scrap wire and magnets, storing rainwater in tanks on the roof; it all sounds so crazy.  I’m used to being a soldier, or a farmhand, or a mechanic; not a tinkerer.  Looking through those plans today gave me a headache.  I don’t know if I’m cut out for this.”
Sal reached out and set a hand on Carlos’s shoulder.  “Surely you can find honor in fending off an implacable foe, protecting innocent people from danger, even if you know you’ll ultimately lose.  Besides, there are other people to help decipher old plans and help you out as a team.  You have many skills and plenty of experience that will come in handy.  After all, wasn’t it you who procured that full truckload of diesel fuel?”
Carlos looked at Sal to find a twinkle in his eye.  He knew about Paco, and was seemingly impressed.
“When we get these things unloaded,” continued Sal, “I think you’d best get cleaned up and packed.”
“Packed?  I didn’t say I was leaving,” replied Carlos.
“Oh, I’m sure you’ll be back, Sergeant Murphy.  But you probably haven’t been to visit your family for some months now, have you?  I’m sure they wouldn’t mind a few days’ help with planting for the summer.”
“Now that you mention it,” said Carlos, gazing out over the lake where the last rays of sunlight were streaming through the broken clouds on the horizon, “I do have something I need to tell them.”